Tuesday, May 31, 2011

Final English 11 Essay

FLAWS

- I trust people far too much and hold grudges when I get hurt.
- I can be socially awkward around people I want to impress.
- I care about a lot of people but fail to see when those people don't care back.
- I say often say things I don't mean and end up hurting people because of it.
- I tend to ignore people who I am angry with and avoid confronting them.
- I am submissive and will not hold my own ground when someone does not let me tell them how I feel in a fight. I put others feelings before mine and let people take advantage of me. 
- Self-centered


STRENGTHS

- Ambitious
- Hard-working
- Kind
- Caring
- Loving
- Intelligent
- Humorous
- Positive/ Negative
- Resilient
- Creative
- Proud
- Determined

"There are questions of real power and then there are questions of phony authority. You have to break through the phony authority to begin to fight the real questions of power."  - Karen Nussbaum


I think this if of the most obvious statements about power. There is real power, pure ambition and god-given power. There is also a phony type of authority that is handed over by another human being who believes he holds power when, in reality, his power is none but the same type of phony authority. This reminds me of the type of power policemen and educational officials hold. There is no real power there. There is no influence or genuine practicality with that power. There is only a false sense of  authority over a seemingly inferior group of people and for that to be considered power is ridiculous. 


"The guilty think all talk is of themselves."  - Geoffrey Chaucer

A guilty person feels that everyone must being talking of their actions and what they have done. Cocky if you ask me, to be constantly thinking another person is talking about you. One should never assume another person is speaking of them, thinking of them, or looking at them. It's not classy, not lady-like, not gentlemanly. One must be humble, even when guilty. Guilty people who are suspicious are often caught sooner than those who are not.  

Yes, everyone has the capability to come out of a situation. But opportunity doesn't fall from the sky in to the hands of the needy. They need to be given an opportunity. People who have no where to go, no motivation, no self-respect. These are people who have been told, their whole lives, that they are worthless. They believe it. People who have been given an opportunity, an open door, are able to thrive in their potential. 

The real question is, to what degree of selfish is it considered negative? Are you doing something for another person because you want to help, and the self satisfaction is just a bonus? Or are you doing something because you know it will make you look like a good person. We all just want to be good people. 

Evil: 

Dispositional 
Situational
Systematic

"Confrontation. Depending on your adversary, it's not always a good idea." Standing up for oneself, proving one's capability, being tough. When the instinct of the human mind takes over and our natural defense mechanisms kick in, we become slaves to our insecurities. We put up walls of our own, concrete barriers that hold strong against any nuclear weapon, but can be cracked by the most insignificant comment. Words that hit home, words that weasel in to our deepest subconscious and hurt more than any stick or stone. In an attempt to prove our stability we create conflict. It is easiest to fight back. Although many people feel that confrontation is pointless and that fighting back will get you no where, one's actions do not always reflect one's opinion. Confrontation derives from the inner most need to defend oneself. It latches on to one's weaknesses and as soon as those tiny imperfections are threatened, it attacks. Confrontation comes from needing to be right, needing to be heard and seen. It comes from having to proves oneself, no matter the opponent. 

Learning about Nazi Germany and the Holocaust has made me question the real definition of evil even further, and has made me think about the true origin of evil. Is it nature, nurture, or both?

After studying evil and the Nazis and this book, I have begun to think about the way I was brought up in more detail. I question whether the person I am right now is because of the way my parents raised me, or because of the way I raised myself. There were many instances when my parents would tell me the world is one way and I would disagree and tell them it is another way and that would be it. Rarely would I let my parents ideals influence me because often, to me, they were quite wrong. I think this has kept me in a place I like to be. This independence has made me a person I am proud of. Sure, I embrace the things my parents have tried to teach me, and there are some things that you have to take with opens arms and accept that they are right. I am proud of who I am because I have not followed a lot of what my parents have taught me. I would rather be considered wrong in their eyes than be ashamed of myself because I mimic the way my parents act in public or my mom's idea of what dance competitions are about. Sure, I have arguments with my mom and dad, mostly my mom, because I don't agree with where they are coming from and they don't understand where I am coming from, but these arguments have shaped me in to the kind of strong-willed person I am right now. I don't let other people tell me what is and what isn't if I don't like it. Of course I am open to new ideas and I am aware of what is fact and what is fiction, but I won't let another person's opinion take priority over my own.


Monday, May 2, 2011

Learning about Nazi Germany and the Holocaust has made me question the real definition of evil even further, and has made me think about the true origin of evil. Is it nature, nurture, or both?

After studying evil and the Nazis and this book, I have begun to think about the way I was brought up in more detail. I question whether the person I am right now is because of the way my parents raised me, or because of the way I raised myself. There were many instances when my parents would tell me the world is one way and I would disagree and tell them it is another way and that would be it. Rarely would I let my parents ideals influence me because often, to me, they were quite wrong. I think this has kept me in a place I like to be. This independence has made me a person I am proud of. Sure, I embrace the things my parents have tried to teach me, and there are some things that you have to take with opens arms and accept that they are right. I am proud of who I am because I have not followed a lot of what my parents have taught me. I would rather be considered wrong in their eyes than be ashamed of myself because I mimic the way my parents act in public or my mom's idea of what dance competitions are about. Sure, I have arguments with my mom and dad, mostly my mom, because I don't agree with where they are coming from and they don't understand where I am coming from, but these arguments have shaped me in to the kind of strong-willed person I am right now. I don't let other people tell me what is and what isn't if I don't like it. Of course I am open to new ideas and I am aware of what is fact and what is fiction, but I won't let another person's opinion take priority over my own.